Hey, long time, no blog eh.

Well, I know it has been awhile since I've blogged anything but, well I have been busy and still struggling. Oh well. But, earlier tonight I went to FHE for a Valentine's Dinner with the other branches from the surrounding area. I know, amazing that I went. The food was great and so was the company. I sat by my sister of course and then a few other friends from my branch but, the real treat was having Greg Reed sit by us. I haven't seen him since summer so it was good to see him and chat with him for awhile. So, overall, that was the good part of the night. But, I don't want to sound down or anything or have my comments reflect on any of my friends. This is just me but, I saw other friends and they of course told me all about everyone that I went to school with and even those that are younger than I am that they are all having babies. Don't get me wrong, I am so excited for every single one of my friends that they have the wonderful opportunity to have a family and be so happy. But, I guess in a way I feel bad that well, I'm still single. I feel like I am getting way old. I know that many of you will beg to differ but, well, maybe its not the old part. I guess I'm just ready to move on. I'm tired of the single life. I know, I've had fun and can still have fun and well, when I get to Vegas I intend to do just that. But, there is still that one part in my life that I feel is missing and I know it's the most important aspect in someone's life and I'm missing out. Don't get me wrong, I'm not jealous of any of you my friends, just wish that I was able to have the same opportunity. Maybe someday though, just hopefully not before I grow too old to have children, because ultimately, that would be a joy that I can't even comprehend fully now. I know I have had many down moments, or well, down years anyways, but I guess in a way, the hope of raising a family is what has held me here to this earth. Otherwise, I think I would be gone already. But, to say the least, I know I cannot conquer this single lifestyle thing without dealing with other things. And I intend to do just that, no matter how painful it will be during the process and I know I'm going to need a lot of support and help. I hope I can make it. Wish me luck. I'm going to bed now, I've been running off of three hours of sleep since sunday so I better get to bed. Take care bloggers and my very awesome friends!